I will tell you the truth here.

In my small hands, little ring of moss,

All the way through Kallay Street.

You’re hardy and delicate. I will repeat words to you, until it gets through.

I watch you so closely,

That I catch everything you touch

That almost falls.

If you swallow your hubba bubba,

A chewy tree will grow inside your stomach.

“Get up, it’s not night time anymore. It’s morning time. Let’s play.”

I make her pass me my pants, my jumper, my socks, so I can put them on under the warm cocoon I have tried to trap myself in.

I use every inch of energy I don’t have, to roll out of bed.

When I walk from my bedroom through the house, there are crumbs underneath the soles of my feet. 

I swear it’s a new involuntary response; brushing one foot over the other to get rid of crumbs.

Only to put them back onto the crumby floor, and do it over again every thirty seconds.

Soon, this won’t happen again.

I Miss You Already.

I Miss You Already

Sol & Blu Fernandez

Opening Night Friday 11 March

I Miss you Already explores the relationship between versions of selves and others; past, present and future. An array of paintings, drawings and writing will allow insight into moments of bittersweet nostalgia, sweet and sad letting go’s and missing parts of yourself and others that you sometimes probably and most times definitely won’t experience again — in turn, forcing us to reflect on savouring every sweet and bitter moment that comes and passes.

Sol Fernandez

Sol Fernandez is a South Asian multidisciplinary storyteller and mother from South East Naarm. Her work explores the liminal spaces within her cultures, and the fluidity of age, relationships and sexuality. She resonates with young people who are making their own way in the world with a lot of heart, building things from the ground up. Sol is passionate about honest and layered representation of young black and brown women through storytelling. In the past few years, Sol’s daughter Blu Fernandez Lennon, who she collaborates on works and life with, has both solidified and loosened her practise.